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Sometimes I am very happy
I feel so anxious
I feel that i can do things that sound impossible
I feel so imperative that costs me a lot relax me

Sometimes I feel very depressed
I feel so empty and lost
My brain just tells me to kill myself and that hurt me
I feel so tired that I can hardly get out of my bed

And the only thing I can say is I'm sorry
I'm sorry to be a burden to all
I'm sorry to be so irritable
I'm sorry to hurt myself
I'm sorry to be me
I'm sorry to hurt my family, friends, etc.
But this is not my fault
All this is because of my illness

I'm not a monster
I'm not crazy
I'm not a freak
I'm just ill
Well friends today I bring this small literature, during these days eh been reading about bipolar disorder and I wanted to write like a bipolar person feels.

The truth bipolar disorder and schizophrenia are almost similar so based on what I feel
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Bueno amigos hoy les traigo esta pequeña pero gran literatura que yo escribe, durante estos dias eh estado leyendo sobre el trastorno bipolar y quize escribir como se siente una persona bipolar.

La verdad el trastorno bipolar y la esquizofrenia son casi similares asi que me base en como yo me siento 
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psychosquatch Featured By Owner Nov 14, 2014
I have been diagnosed with bipolar disorder,as well as many other mental illnesses. I know I put my family through hell, and I am truly sorry for that. Thing is, all the treatments that did anything whatsoever seemed to only make me more violent/angry/hyper/suicidal etc. It really makes me wonder if I would have at least been able to function had I been left to my own devices, rather than forced help. I am better now, after avoiding treatment for the past ten years, but I'm still messed up. The question is, is it my fault or theirs?
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M155-B3h4v3 Featured By Owner Sep 1, 2014  Hobbyist Artisan Crafter
Hi there

I would really love to feature this on My Blog

Please could you give me a shout and let me know if you're interested.

Thanks 
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AndreaSemiramis Featured By Owner Sep 2, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Ok and Sure you can put this in your blog :)
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M155-B3h4v3 Featured By Owner Sep 2, 2014  Hobbyist Artisan Crafter
This piece is also now featured on my blog. Many thanks
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Gentle-Shadow Featured By Owner Aug 1, 2014  Student General Artist
Exactly what I am .... ILL.
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DarkShadeStar Featured By Owner Jan 20, 2014  Student Writer
If only it was this simple...
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artgirl26 Featured By Owner Dec 16, 2013  Student General Artist
I know how you feel I'm like that everyday some time, but you have to keep going on.Hatsune Miku-16 (Cheer) Hatsune Miku-16 (Cheer) 
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AndreaSemiramis Featured By Owner Dec 16, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
I agree with you,everybody have to keep moving forward :hug::hug::hug::hug::hug::hug::hug:Hatsune Miku-16 (Cheer) Hatsune Miku-16 (Cheer) Hatsune Miku-16 (Cheer) Hatsune Miku-16 (Cheer) Hatsune Miku-16 (Cheer) Hatsune Miku-16 (Cheer) 
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artgirl26 Featured By Owner Dec 16, 2013  Student General Artist
Cool!!!Llama Emoji-23 (Shyness) [V1] Butterflies Llama Emoji-23 (Shyness) [V1] Butterflies 
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1TrollSniper1 Featured By Owner Dec 2, 2013   Traditional Artist
Don't feel out of hope. Even if you have an illness you still can turn things around by working to improve it. 
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AndreaSemiramis Featured By Owner Dec 3, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
thanks :hug:
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BlindEyeTwist Featured By Owner Nov 29, 2013
I am not diagnosed with bipolar disorder or anything, but I feel like I can really relate to that text - should I worry?

anyway, you did an awesome job here :)
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AndreaSemiramis Featured By Owner Nov 29, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Well, if you have some symptoms of bipolar disorder, I ask that fence to see a psychiatrist or psychologist for help

And thanks :hug:
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BlindEyeTwist Featured By Owner Nov 30, 2013
my pleasure :hug:
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LMW-The-Poet Featured By Owner Nov 29, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
For me personally, this is so close to the true thing... If you've studied bipolar disorder enough, you'd known that there's different stages. I'm at a lower stage so the hurting and putting an end don't come to my mind... But every other thing in this writing is written perfectly. When I read your description I was shocked that it sounded as if you weren't actually bipolar... Just perspective writing. Wow.
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AndreaSemiramis Featured By Owner Nov 29, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Thanks :blushes:
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MusicRulesUs Featured By Owner Nov 27, 2013  Student Digital Artist
As a young woman with a bipolar disorder, I find this very true. Moods change in a split second, and usually does that all day long. You would be hyper one minute and wanting to kill yourself the next. It's exhausting. We're the ones that does the most work, trying to keep our monsters from spilling out and not to scare our peers.
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AndreaSemiramis Featured By Owner Nov 29, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
I totally agree with your comment :)
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bear48 Featured By Owner Nov 27, 2013  Professional
Thought provoking

well written

I am sharing this with a bipolar friend
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AndreaSemiramis Featured By Owner Nov 29, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
seriously, thanks :hug:
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ApplauseJunkie Featured By Owner Nov 27, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
This is a very good representation of the experiences of one with bipolar disorder.
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AndreaSemiramis Featured By Owner Nov 27, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
That was what I wanted to achieve, say everything we feel in a literature
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riverotter7 Featured By Owner Nov 27, 2013  Hobbyist Artisan Crafter
I understand, Love. I have 3 personalities and since my Mama died in February, keeping the Older One in check has been a horrid experience. She's the one who would like to go out and smash car windows, take out Christmas trees (yes, people have put them up already) but I can't let her out. It's been a daily painful struggle not to.
Believe me, Dearest One, when I say, you are understood and that you're not along ::Hugs you::
There are days we are monsters when we have to stay away from people; when we're crazy and would like to smash all the dishes but don't because then we wouldn't have any. I like the term Freak. I fit in that Category very well....and as for the illness, there are other Illnesses pushing on top of me. The Pain isn't all just mental now; it's Physical. We hurt.
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AndreaSemiramis Featured By Owner Nov 27, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
beautiful words friend,I'm sorry that your going through this much pain, me too I'm going through a lot of pain because I have paranoid schizophrenia and you do not know how painful it is to suffer delusions or hallucinations, but remember you're not alone HugHugHugHugHugHugHugHugHugHugHugHugHugHugHugHug
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riverotter7 Featured By Owner Nov 28, 2013  Hobbyist Artisan Crafter
I can just about guess. My son, who cut us out of his life because he all of a sudden wanted to Catholic; did a great disservice to me. He gave us his cat when Mischa was a year old and we cared for him as if Mischa were one of our own children. 15 years later, Matt want "his" cat back. I didn't want to give him back but Katy (my Partner of 33 years) said "Mischa is his cat". I just asked him should Mischa become annoying I want him back.

About 6 months later the Green Bay (WI) gives us a call to make certain my stupid son  is a good candidate for a dog. I asked "What about the cats?" They told me that there were no cats in the house. Matt had taken the 3 cats to the humane society and just dropped them off. Mischa was 15 and looking for someone to love him like we did.

I told my son. do not call me, don't try and see me, because you Matthew owe me a life debt.
I had to go into psych. care rather than think he'd run in to me. I miss my grandchildren, but I know for certain that Matt has made absolutely true to them that Katy and I are dead.

We're a bloody pair aren't we? There's some days I'm willing to pick up my good axe and go out.

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A-Beloved-Tree Featured By Owner Nov 27, 2013
I guess you would call me bipolar :) I have never really considered my feelings an illness..
i suppose it is not healthy, always interesting to read about
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AndreaSemiramis Featured By Owner Nov 29, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
if you have symptoms of this disease fence to see a doctor
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A-Beloved-Tree Featured By Owner Nov 30, 2013
I did an online diagnosis, it told me I should consult a doctor urgently.. but I have managed on my own for this long :P
I don't know if counselling is my cup of tea
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Okamicat Featured By Owner Nov 27, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
I can relate to this completely
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AndreaSemiramis Featured By Owner Nov 29, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
seriously, thanks
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Okamicat Featured By Owner Nov 30, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
Not a problem
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hallyboo123 Featured By Owner Nov 27, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Don't beat yourself up! I'm bipolar too!
I can totally relate, sister! (My family can too...) XD
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AndreaSemiramis Featured By Owner Nov 29, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
well I'm not bipolar, I'm schizophrenic :(

You don't never give up :hug:
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hallyboo123 Featured By Owner Nov 29, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Hang in there! :iconpatplz:
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AndreaSemiramis Featured By Owner Nov 29, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
:hug:
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DanDelAwesome Featured By Owner Nov 27, 2013
I was told there would be poetry.
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kosvana Featured By Owner Nov 27, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
I really feel connected to the "I'm sorry part..." Since my Bipolar Disorder makes me come off as a hurtful person during certain episodes, but its something I can't control at all, so I feel horrible about it. it's nice to know people wish to write about bipolar disorder, it helps others know what's going on inside. 
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AndreaSemiramis Featured By Owner Nov 28, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
I'm so happy to help all :hug::hug::hug::hug::hug:
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SuzakuGirl13 Featured By Owner Nov 27, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
I have anxiety disorder, and I have several friends who are schizophrenic, bipolar, or both. I do not believe that having a mental disorder makes someone "insane," but so what if it does? Nobody is technically "sane." :)
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AndreaSemiramis Featured By Owner Nov 29, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
exact all have a mental illness, because sometimes we suffer from stress, anxiety, panic, depression, hyperactivity, and those are a mental illnesses, if only some people what they suffer for a short time and others for longer 
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SuzakuGirl13 Featured By Owner Nov 30, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
Anxiety comes to me in short bursts, sometimes for no reason. It's not TOO bad, but I almost passed out while I was taking an open-note test in my accounting class last week, even though I knew the material well. I also have this weird thing about me where Tylenol gives me suicidal depression. 
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Tigerkytti Featured By Owner Nov 27, 2013
I don't normally comment much on stuff of those who aren't friends of mine, but I just want to say how much I can understand this. I personally do not have bipolar, but I have been diagnosed with dysthymia. (Another form of depression for those who might not know) There's a few key differences, but in the end, I can relate. Too few people are willing to realize those with mental illness are not that illness.
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AndreaSemiramis Featured By Owner Nov 29, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
I'm sorry to hear about your problem, and thanks for your comment, and remember that you not are alone :hug:
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MerrilyWeRosalynn Featured By Owner Nov 27, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
A very pretty and emotional poem. I would like to say though, that not everything can be ascribed to a mental illness and a person does have to take responsibility for their actions even if they're not in their right mind. Just can't always play the victim, you know? Sorry if it sounds a little harsh, but as someone who had a lot of problems with a bipolar stepfather, I came to resent the hollow "It's not me, it's the illness" claims.
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CaptainMisuzu Featured By Owner Nov 27, 2013  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Oh god, i'm so please your litterature is on popular this 24hours !

I'm bipolar.. i hurt so much people in my young age because no one didn't understand what i had, depressed, bad meeting.... 
I know everything is due to my illness but we feels so much culpalization...

But now i know my illness and have a good treatment, i feel really better and can almost live like normal people.

I give you a million of hugs and kisses.
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AndreaSemiramis Featured By Owner Nov 28, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
I am very glad for you :hug:
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CaptainMisuzu Featured By Owner Nov 28, 2013  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
I feel more like it's a real hope for all people who had thoses decease :3
It took me 7 years to find the good treatment but we can \o/
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AndreaSemiramis Featured By Owner Nov 29, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
I'm so happy for you, I'll try to get ahead :hug:
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XinsaneXfantasyXlvr Featured By Owner Nov 27, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
After being diagnosed with schizophrenia and bipolar disorder that went untreated for years, I can relate to this so much!!! I will never be able to not feel sorry for putting my family and friends through this hell in me. They've dealt with me for so long and say that they are fine doing this, but...sometimes I feel like they would be better off without having to deal with this...
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AndreaSemiramis Featured By Owner Nov 28, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
I feel that way too, I'm sorry to hear that but remember you not are alone :hug::hug::hug::hug::hug::hug::hug::hug::hug::hug::hug::hug::hug::hug::hug:
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